I'm Home Now
I awaken to Malik starring up at me with bloodshot eyes. He was crying but of course he would not admit it. I asked him about the kids. I have this crazy habit of speaking of Niala as if she's been born already. But he assured me that all was well. Luna took Roddie home since it was getting late and I'm glad that Franklin Square Hospital let Malik stay a few hours longer. Since they are known for being strict.
I found out that my Sisters were in town, surprise to hear that Lolita came along also. When I woke up Sunday morning Carmen & Cecilia were in the room. Carmen was happy (she said that she's in love) and Cecilia looked 20lbs lighter. Cecilia and I don't talk much because she can be judgemental like her mother(Lo) but Carmen is my gurl. Lo was there too, she purposely came in later sipping on a cup of coffee. First thing she said was "I was wondering if you were ever going to wake up" (that's her way of saying hi) She told me that life must be good because everyone is gaining weight. I wanted to say BITCH I'm pregnant but for the first time Cecilia cut in.
Later on Luna stopped by with Roddie and she brought me a box of Godiva truffles,my favorite, almost as good as sex. Even Luna said "if you can't have sex you might as well eat some chocolate" Roddie cried when he saw me and me and my emotionally wrecked self cried with him. It's amazing but he and Julio were going to Six Flags tonight now Roddie is going to his father's funeral.
Last night when I was alone I cried for Julio, not because I love him, because that's not true. I cried because he lived his life wrong. He made too many bad choices. Two months ago I told him that he need to stop messing around with those crazy chica's. Do you know how he answered me? Sure as soon as I leave Malik and come back to him. But he knew that it wasn't going to happen...........................Boney
posted by Bonita @ 10:00 PM
6 Comments:
I too have been praying for you and Roddie, and Mik earnestly. I hope you know that God still has a plan, and Ms. Niala will be just fine. YOu stay healthy and keep being that woman you've been designed to be. I really miss your presence, but please know that you remain in my thoughts. I love you Boney Bologna
Boney,
First things first. I love you and my heart bleeds for you right now. It's hard to know how to feel when we "lose" someone who hurt us. It's hard to reconcile a feeling of loss for someone that we don't really hold dear anymore. Whatever you are feeling,love, go with God. Your family (all of you, those here and those who are yet to arrive) will survive and thrive and God will work with you to make you, personally stronger.
IIf ever you need prayer, a voice or a shoulder holla.
I'm never too far.
God bless you,
-J*
Yall make want to cry. But I know that's it feels good to be loved. I am so inspired by you three among others. If only you knew how much your cyber presence means to me. It's priceless and it makes me feel worthy......Boney
Welcome Back Queen!
Who is that in the pic?
In the photo above is Julio, our son Rodrigo and one of his daughters. It's an old photo because Roddie was 4 or 5 I think............Boney
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