He Needs To Be Loved

Sometimes I look at him and can't
believe that he is my child;
Some days I think he don't need me
and he can raise himself.

I remember years back when he yelled that he hated me
I understood that it was anger but still those words hurt me.
I provided for him everyday, regardless what some people say
Fed him, clothe him and taught him well;
yet something was still missing and I could tell.

Because he needs to be loved and I need him to love me,

I went through all sorts of crazy things to keep a roof over our head;
And on some occasions, I did not make it home to see him to bed.
Then Julio only helped me when ever I had to force him too.
As long as I was sexing him the money flow continued.

I know that it made me look like a whore,
but at the time I didn't give a damn anymore,
I had a son that needed me.
I was always there for Roddie,

Because he needs to be loved and I need him to love me,

Sometimes we can go days with out a single word to say
But deep down inside I know that he loves me
I tried not to hide our divided wall,
I want him to know that I will give him my all.

When I'm alone I sit and cry because I think that I failed him
Then he comes home and join me by my side and said what you doin.
He kisses me on my cheek and say Mom you are so beautiful
I turn my head to wipe the tears from my eyes because I don't want him to know.

Because he needs to be loved and I need him to love me.............072105