Us Women

There comes a time in every woman's life

when she has to take a close look at herself.

Not at her circumstance, not at what she did, not how unfair

life is, or not at whom made you do it. She has to just look at

herself in all her glory and imperfection. Have you ever admired

a woman who has been through changes in her life?

Or have you made up in your mind that she is just messed up.

Before you make this mistake, take a closer look. A woman who has

endured the most unusual life is someoneof wisdom, someone

who has been chosen by God to go through

things that have made her stronger. Think of all the great

women in the Bible: MaryMagdalene,

Ruth and Naomi, the woman with an issue of blood flow, and

Esther, to name a few. Mary was a prostitute, a very uneasy woman.

But by the time Jesus was done with her,

she was His closest follower. Esther was unfortunate in marrying

an abusive man, but by the time God wasdone with her,

she had married one of the wealthiest men in the

land. Women are so quick to beat the next one down instead of

trying to hold her up. Before you wonder,

"What's up with her?" ask yourself, "What's up with me?"

That woman could be my mother, sister, aunt, in-law,

stepmother, niece, grandmother, great-grandmother, neighbor,

friend, or co-worker, etc. That woman could be me. Women are

the carriers of life, not the channels of death.

Let's build and encourage each other, as did Ruth and Naomi.

Encourage and Love, Forgive and Forget, and Trus that

the woman that receives this will be touched in some way.

May peace and love be onto you.......

Greed

I must Confess
One night I lay across my bed
then an image of you crossed my head
But you know that I have a man
so what might me think of you
That's a though I could never understand
Yet I laid their in fantasized about you
I imagine your strong hands
tracing the contours of my body
as I reached out to grasp your touch
Forgetting that you were not in reach
which left me wanting, you more, your lust
Even though my man is all that I need
I beg to one day get lost in your realms
And to think some people may see it as greed
My lust for you continues to overwhelms,
The pure pleasure that I give myself from one thought of you
I mound my soul as I reach deeper to cover myself in dew
I should feel guilty but I do not because desire has taken center stage
So all I am asking of you my dear is to give me that chance to assuage.....B

Lo

All my life I have been confused of your existence
To the point where I had deep embedded scars
Now that I recalled my true mother brilliance
I feel the need to know more about her
You made me feel like a motherless child
Treating me as if I was a bad omen
All because I was Papa's bastard child to you
With out me ever knowing
Now that I am a mother, I have rekindled that pain
Yet the mere thought of treating my children
they way you did me, would be totally insane
I have never intentionally hurt you yet you
continue to say vicious things; Trying to bring me
down to your level whenever you get into your mood swings.
So why call me if you have problems being hospitable.
I have learned to shelter you out of my life because I really don't need you Lo

Hunted By Many Tamed By One

I was hunted by many and tamed by one
Say whatever you want to say because it
has already been done.

Don't pretend that you are capable of
sweeping me off my feet because I've
already been swept.
Don't claim to have the sweetest meat
because my needs are being met

So just do me a favor and keep on moving
because I love my Boo
Cause I don't need no more interruptions
from them nor you

My man loves me and I got his back
There's nothing here to ponder, it's a well known fact

I might talk shit on any given night
But this here is all his and he knows that's right.

So I don't care if your cock is as long as California
or as short as Maine
There's only one man that I want to end my nights with
because he got me tamed................082105

Come Home Niala

Tonight I'm sitting here waiting patiently for you
There is no hesitating because your time is due

Come Home
Niala I'm calling you
Come Home

Your Daddy's is growing so impatient,
your big Brother just can't wait
You have Aunts & Uncles going crazy
awaiting your homecoming date

Come Home
Niala we love you so
Come Home
We're ready to watch you grow

We painted your room lavender
and Daddy built you a crib
Now we are ready for your arrival
To give you all the love two parents can give

Come Home
Niala,
Come Home

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Could You Imagine........

Could you imagine your death, without family or friends,
No one around to see you off, ,just the memories of days back then

Could you imagine not being loved, yet living a long sad life
It's sort of like, you haven't lived life at all, can you imagine the lonely nights

Can you imagine facilitating your most articulate speech yet no one understands a word
Can you imagine feeling depressed and the ignorant thinks it's absurd.

Can you imagine satisfying your greed, when others go hungry
How can one say that they are rich, while others live poorly

Could you imagine writing a blog that no one ever reads
Could you imagine thinking of a fabulous idea, yet no one else agrees

Could you imagine crying for help, yet no one sees your tears;
Could you imagine acting brave, yet living your life in fear.

Could you imagine being gifted, but you lost the ability to create;
Could you imagine keeping precise time yet always showing up late.

I guess we all are human, so we tend to experience some of these things;
But then again can you imagine sleeping every night and not being able to dream.

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I got something to share with you
Before you hear rumors thataren’t true,
about some things thatI have done or do.
I want to share these before you hear what other’s say.

I have not always been a good gurl
I can say that I have traveled the world
I know exactly well, how to use my pearls
and I use it well every day.

I have not always been on the right track
I drank a lot, I smoked weed but I never did crack
Had my share of men and don’t want them back
I’m sexually curious but I’ll be damn if I am gay.

At this time, I am so into you
Because of the things, you put my body thru
If I had to chance to make my dreams come true
If I asked to do you, what would you say?

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If I Shall Die Tonight

Last night Luna & I was watching Six Feet Under and to both of our surprise Nat died other having brain surgery (talk about bad timing) well we both cried because last night episode was the saddest funeral I have ever witness.

I never told anyone but a few weeks ago while I was in the hospital I dreamt of my death. It was confusing because we were near a sandy road and I was with Niala and Rodrigo. She was a beautiful little girl and Roddie was handsome as always. I don't recall Malik being there but I saw myself in a casket it was like an outer body experience. I always wondered was there any merit to that dream. Wouldn't it be odd if we as immortal souls knew exactly how we were going to exit life? When I fainted after Julio's death Vonita appeared in my dreams I asked her was I dead and she answered no honey, I asked her was the baby okay and she said "Don't worry about a thing you are going to have a beautiful little girl, Niala is fine" I woke up crying because I believed my mother, every since I've seen her photo of her teaching her class, that face has appeared in my most worrisome dreams.

Today I pray for Luna, becaue she is going under a knife, the tumor is benign so it's time to remove it. She keeps thinking that she's not going to live thru this and she even had the nerve to discuss the welfare of her children with me. That's a heavy task but for her I would never question it because she like a Sister to me and I love her............................Bo

Thalia, Thalia, Thalia

Today Luna told me that I was attractive to exotic looking women. Well she may have a point there because I have a thing for Shakira, Luna, Claudia and everyone that knows me knows exactly how I feel about Thalia. She's a beautiful sister, her family is from India but she's american born. She follows here heritage but she's a typical american freak. She's a teaser too, mean from India mistake her for a bollywood actress Nanyah Nair. and Thalia knows she's not Nanya but she signs autographs anyway.................That's Thalia Sagal in the photo...........If I shall ever place my lips on another woman it would be her..................Bo

Hey You Get Of My Mountain

Hey you, get off my mountain,
Hey you get off my cloud,
Hey you get off my mountain,
Your just trying to bring me down...........The Dramatics

This morning while I was talking on the phone with my sister I could not help but overhear my nemesis in the background. She was saying words that cut thru my heart like a machete. Some people try like hell to get undermy skin but I manage to shield them off. But then their are others that can slip right thru with ease causing havoc in my peacfull little world. Lolita is the latter of the two....today she accused me of being like my "putee a madre de asno". Stealing a good man from his wife. That bitch gives me the blues but I have no memory of my mother. I was only three years old when she passed so I don't know anything of her personality. I will admit that when I met Malik we were both married but I never thew myself at him. All we did was talk, we talked about everything and anything that two mature adults would talk about.....

During the ten years of his seperation from Linda, my divorce, then finally his divorce there was no sexual activities going on between us too. So how does that make me a whore, plus who is she to say that Vonita was a whore. Papa Sergio was not a happy man, maybe my Mother put a smile on his face. Years ago when I was about to marry Julio Papa told me that "True love only comes once and it may not come at the right time but you will know when you are really in love and it's up to you to do something about it" At that time I did not fully grasp his meaning but I asked Papa was he in love and he smiled at me and answered "I was in love once long ago and she was as beautiful as you mi Bonita, she had a smile as pretty as yours and she captured my heart" I asked Papa what happened to her and again he answered "I was a married man, it could not have lasted long." I felt sad for Papa Sergio because he was not in love, and I could tell that he was not happy...

The day I met Malik , I knew exactly what Papa was trying to tell me.That was the day I fell in love and even though I was married to Julio I was not happy, so all I had to do was wait............Bo