If I Shall Die Tonight

Last night Luna & I was watching Six Feet Under and to both of our surprise Nat died other having brain surgery (talk about bad timing) well we both cried because last night episode was the saddest funeral I have ever witness.

I never told anyone but a few weeks ago while I was in the hospital I dreamt of my death. It was confusing because we were near a sandy road and I was with Niala and Rodrigo. She was a beautiful little girl and Roddie was handsome as always. I don't recall Malik being there but I saw myself in a casket it was like an outer body experience. I always wondered was there any merit to that dream. Wouldn't it be odd if we as immortal souls knew exactly how we were going to exit life? When I fainted after Julio's death Vonita appeared in my dreams I asked her was I dead and she answered no honey, I asked her was the baby okay and she said "Don't worry about a thing you are going to have a beautiful little girl, Niala is fine" I woke up crying because I believed my mother, every since I've seen her photo of her teaching her class, that face has appeared in my most worrisome dreams.

Today I pray for Luna, becaue she is going under a knife, the tumor is benign so it's time to remove it. She keeps thinking that she's not going to live thru this and she even had the nerve to discuss the welfare of her children with me. That's a heavy task but for her I would never question it because she like a Sister to me and I love her............................Bo